April 2012
1 post
I'm just trying to mind my own business.
Living in my own world, getting the things that I need to do happening, and making my life better. And I think it’s been going really well, all things considered.
And then I see things like that. Things that shake me from that comfort. Things that remind me of the implications I’ve placed on myself by my actions. I’ve lost people, I’ve shut people out. Maybe it’s...
March 2012
6 posts
There should be something illegal about this.
I went into work at 11am today. I am given a one-hour break for these long shift. And then two 10-minute meal breaks. For the rest of the time, I am scheduled to be working then, duh. I closed today, so the schedule says to leave at 11pm. I left at nearly 2am. Someone didn’t show up or some stupid shit like that, and after a day of doing menial bullshit tasks because important people are...
I don’t think I ever realized how much words being put in my mouth could hurt. Maybe it’s because I have no way to prove it wrong. Maybe it’s just the subject matter and how I’ve felt nothing but the opposite, but that isn’t really the point. It just… bothers my mind. But, it’s a busy day at work, and I’m working all fucking day, so it’s not...
Anonymous asked: You've brought that upon yourself.
I have no place.
February 2012
12 posts
Anonymous asked: You're on my mind a lot, never seeming to go away.
The hardest decision to make:
Whether or not to delete your existing Pokemon save file in order to start a new game.
I’m so conflicted. D:
I've learned something in the past...
And that’s to just keep my mouth shut when it doesn’t need to be opened. For lack of anything beneficial escaping my vocal canal.
Anonymous asked: “Sleep late, have fun, get wild, drink whiskey, and drive fast on empty streets with nothing in mind except falling in love and not getting arrested.”— Hunter S. Thompson
I will prove you wrong.
benzy:
hooliahoot:
benzy:
There’s nothing more to it…
A person has only so much to prove… ;)
I don’t know what it is you’re trying to do, but I’m asking you to please stop. It’s not worth it.
I’m not trying to do anything here, you’re so sensitive.
Are you serious? You message me out of the blue calling me fucking names. Telling me I’m going to be miserable? You’re not...
I will prove you wrong.
hooliahoot:
benzy:
There’s nothing more to it…
A person has only so much to prove… ;)
I don’t know what it is you’re trying to do, but I’m asking you to please stop. It’s not worth it.
I will prove you wrong.
There’s nothing more to it…
Oh god.
That just smacked me in the face.
Hard.
January 2012
7 posts
Google knows me. o.o
Google uses a “personalized” guess on who you are by your age and interests in order to aim more relevant ads to you, using mostly what websites you visit and what cookies are left over.
Google assumes that I’m:
Male
Age 18-24
Interests:
Arts & Entertainment - Music & Audio
Games - Computer & Video Games
Sports - Combat Sports - Wrestling
Except...
Anonymous asked: Julia didn't deserve you anyway, you know that.
Anonymous asked: whyd you and julia break up?
I think I know why I have been avoiding home...
Because when I’m at home, especially here alone as I am now, is when I take the time to let my mind analyze everything. And all of my coherent thoughts alone like this right now take a turn for the, well… depressing. It really is an obvious conclusion.
I didn’t go to work today because I just didn’t have it in me.
I hate these funks. With a passion.
What a horrible day.
Sleep, please come save me soon.
I haven't really been paying attention to my...
I’ve been neglecting it for other things. No facebook, no tumblr, basically my connection to the world outside of my immediate surroundings has been non-existent. For all anyone knows, maybe I moved to Alaska and began a dog-sledding career. One mush to rule them all.
…Nah. I haven’t done that. Would be pretty cool, though.
December 2011
15 posts
I have a job.
Whoa. I knew I’d be looking for one once I left Ball State, but I didn’t think it would happen so quickly. Two hours after being home, and I got a job.
That’s efficiency at work, huh?
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Joe's Head
This is just the way of the world, Joe said
I had to put a bullet into his head
And then he lit up a cigarette
Decided to call up his fat friend Fred
Well he said, “Fred, I just killed a man,”
“I caught him laying with my girlfriend,”
“And now they’re both dead,”
“People can be so cold when they’re dead.”
It's Official: Gaiden
My roommate said that four people have already came and told him, “I’m moving in. My stuff’s going to go here,” etc.
It’s motherfuckers like these that I won’t miss.
It's official.
I made my decision.
I won’t be at Ball State next semester.
Where this takes me, I really wish I knew. Really wish. I’m going to make the best of it, though. I’ll find my way. I’ll find success however I can. I’m not burying myself. No. It’s more like I’m just planting myself as the seed of some path unbeknownst to me at this point.
I’m afraid,...
I might be a college drop-out.
You’re reading that right.
There’s a lot leading into this, so much so that I don’t feel like I could cover the circumstances adequately. So let’s put it this way: If you’re curious about this, ask me questions.
It’s not certain at this point. I have decisions to make, and quite frankly I’m overwhelmed by it. I have not transitioned to college in the...
Is this really my last couple of weeks?
…If that winds up being the case, well, it was a fine vacation.
Pointless things that I notice:
(Maybe I should make this a series, it seems to happen often enough)
On my iTunes, for every second in between 1:56 and 5:21, there is at least one song.
“History is hard to know, because of all the hired bullshit, but even without...”
– Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
November 2011
29 posts
Social Anxiety.
I hate it.
It’s the reason I feel comfortable nowhere except for this tiny room and back at home. I don’t want to come up with excuses, but the same thing happened to me in high school. I didn’t belong and I didn’t feel right until I found an outlet, until I found people. Some twists and turns later and here I am in college doing the exact same thing. That is, except this...
Twenty years ago today:
Freddie mercury, the greatest vocalist of all time, died. Not even a year before I was born. Hopefully he’s still using that beautiful voice of his wherever he may be.
Anonymous asked: yeah but if you knew who this was you would.
Anonymous asked: so how 'bout it? ;)
Oh fuck, I just understood that last "question" I...
I’m so slow.
lol